Mostly, it’s connected with my work. But my work has been a big part of my life and these goodbyes lie heavy on my heart.
Two of the people I’ve considered mentors in journalism are leaving. They’ll take up work in another company or maybe set up their own.
They will be taking with them opportunities for me to learn more about strength of character, courage to oppose wrong and excellent journalism.
As they leave, two more office mates I’ve worked with for the past decade have opted to resign. They’ll pursue other interests. I’m not really close to them but we’ve worked well in various projects. And their leaving too adds another weight on my heart.
And then a close friend and peer just told me she is leaving too. It seemed the sky just turned dark. She’s leaving for the same reasons as the others. It ‘s just not working for her anymore staying in the company, staying in this job. I’ve but grown up with her in this company and I will terribly miss her.
She’s excited though to explore new opportunities. I can hear her voice sing when she talks of her plans, which consist mostly of traveling and just jumping into the unknown.
I almost envy her. Almost. But, not really because I know this –-this being a journalist- still works for me.
And yet, I go through the motions of daily work routine feeling like I’m dragging my feet.
It seems that for me it’s not only good to love what I do for work, but also that I like those I work with.
At the turn of the new year of 2011, I told myself to shake off this heavy feeling. Shake off the drak clouds. I must learn to detach from those who are leaving. Or else thinking of the void they will leave will prevent me from moving on.
I told myself this has happened before with different persons and I’ve learned to be happy again with new ones.
And maybe it will be ok soon enough. The world does not stop even if there are a lot of goodbyes. But should it be time to plan my new hellos?
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